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calvin's InsaneJournal:
| Thursday, August 27th, 2009 | |
| 8:47 pm | private I went by Taylor's new place today and she doesn't know it yet, but I know where they staying and I WILL get my hands on him. When I do, it ain't gonna be pretty. Current Mood:  pissed off |
| Sunday, August 9th, 2009 | |
| 6:11 pm | I need her and she left me. I want to kill that mother fucker. Ring his tiny fuckin' neck. Current Mood: infuriated |
| Friday, July 24th, 2009 | |
| 2:24 pm | private matters. She told me last night to basically fuck off. After all that I've done for her. She still wants to be with this little bitch named Lance. Still. When will she just wake the fuck up and realize who really loves her? Current Mood: pissed off |
| Tuesday, July 7th, 2009 | |
| 9:12 pm | Love is in the air? I'm really starting to see what a douche bag I have been in the past to people. Consider this me turning over a new leaf. Starting fresh if you will. She really warms my heart and makes me want to melt. I can't stop staring into her blue eyes, it's sad really. Calvin Edwards doesn't fall in love. Lust? Oh yes but this? I'm not exactly sure how I feel I just know that when I'm around her but it's nice and I kind of like it. Current Mood:  confused |
| Tuesday, June 30th, 2009 | |
| 12:21 pm | This L.A. shit isn't working out as well as I hoped it would. I came out here to try this music thing. Problem is, I have this friend here who is really lonely and got herself knocked up by some dumb ass who doesn't want anything to do with her and so I have been spending all of my time with her, comforting and keeping her company. I will be the first to fuckin' admit that I'm not perfect, nobody walking Earth's surface is and I have made mistakes in my life. Stupid decisions that have hurt people, even though it seems like an eternity away, those feelings of hurt and resentment are still there under the surface. I can be such a dick, this I know as well as anybody who has ever come into contact with me. I could give a fuck less about what people think about me which very well may be my problem. My intentions aren't always bad. I don't have a big head and think I'm some billy bad ass and every one should fear me but I don't really care about other people's opinions either. Bottom line is, I hurt Taylor our senior year of High School. Bad. I embaressed her, said things that weren't true about her and those things have stuck with her since than and really, I want to take those things back. If it were possible, I'd go back into time and undo all the hurt I caused her.  Taylor is such a great person, so beautiful, smart and funny but when she's sad, it's a whole different story. Current Mood:  mellow |
| Wednesday, June 24th, 2009 | |
| 8:25 am | Last night: Dinner and a movie with Taylor. It was nice seeing her, it feels like it's been too long. Not sure I'm digging the sea food out here but I don't have a choice. If I'm going to try and make it big here, there is a shit load of things that I'm not going to like. Current Mood: horny |